Do you bite your thumb at us, sir?

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 17:20:31 GMT

Good Bye Pretend_2b_mad but time to take it up a notch!

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Mon, 25 Apr 2005 23:09:20 GMT

To those who cheered me up and were there when I was down.. thank you!

7 more days until my BDAY

but im excited for saturday .. I miss certain people : (

Much love!

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 00:56:29 GMT

Ok it has been a while; and maybe it isn't good that i'm back. Please don't take this seriously im just sad because im bored like the rest of the highschool population. For the longest time I felt so happy and I guess it would be normal to say that im having a little down time. *shrugs* I have my rights. At this point I guess you could say I'm scared that things have gotten to a point in my happiness and now they are just going to go the other way. I guess I need to remember the only reason I was happy in the first place was because I made myself that way. I have no reason to panic or be depressed. I still have Rob, he is wonderful to me. I dont see them as often as I would like or maybe at all this year but I know my real friends are out there. I have food. I have water. I have feet and hands with 20 fingers and toes (together that is) and I have a place to live... Yet I feel real shitty as I write this. Not depressed or sad just empty and blah. I worry way too much. And sometimes not enough. My term paper remains half done and due on monday and here I am writing about how bad I feel. Maybe I just needed a chance to let it all out. I decided im not going to check spelling on this I want you to see how pathetic I am right now as if you were standing next to me. I dont want to hear aww amanda you will be ok I want to hear someone say lets get out of here this house is aweful. I want to hear that I will be safe from one of the scariest things that could happen to a girl as young as I. I want to hear that c's are not evil. I got A's for the first time in my life and honestly... it felt no different. Now people just want to see As more often. Heh I want to scream out to them and say the truth.. the reason I got As was because I dropped into lower classes. I miss laughing it feels like a long time since I had a really good laugh I want to not care I want to love him and not worry. I am greedy I want so many things.. .wow this feels really good for some reason letting this all out. I just sneezed and my glasses fell off motherF'ers! I got a new pair... I cant wait to recieve them... it will be like christmas or my birthday.... wait 10 days? it will be my birtday. My sixteenth. OI maybe im going through a mid teen crisis? I got a fish today? His name is buddah. I want to call rob to tell him but I feel rob doesnt enjoy talking to me on the phone I think he just likes me in person. I would never sink as low to saying he doesnt like me. No I just dont feel that it has been almost 5 months now and I am positive things are just fine. I sort of miss him. I want to hug him so much and just laugh laugh all this pointless bullshit off. That is why I dated him in the first place. He made me laugh like no other man has made me laugh before. I felt fresh and new, and I would do anything to feel that again. It has been a couple days since I have felt that. Yes only days not months or years but days. I am a creature of habbit you dont walk the dog then the dog gets sad. God I hope you poor people dont read this ... its more for my benefit then anything just to type on and on get all this crappyness out of me. I wont go slit my wrist. I wont go listen to the saddest song and cry. I will end this by doing something I do normally or go take a look at my new fish again... I love buddah! (name of fish) I should paint or soemthign or maybe better yet write my paper that sounds dandy. I think I feel better it is funny how this works! Well I hope I see rob so he can make me laugh,, I love him for that (and of course once we started dating I found billions of other things that I love about the boy) I hope I have a good bday. I need to put effort into being happy and it will be. I love you alllllll and comment anything if you read this ... I want to know how you people are!

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 02:06:51 GMT

Sorry I don't update...

Can you blame me?

<3 Love

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 01:19:17 GMT

I have a lot to get done, This time of year is always busy for me and I think I need some time to get things settled. So this means I may not post for a little while so here is a picture of me looking like Im in an old scary Movie!

Ok Now you saw that I will tell you the things that are keeping me busy

Getting art portfolio ready for review day
Carrie's Letter (the old one is outdated please be patient my dear. I want to put a lot of well deserved effort into yours my old friend)
School Projects (IAG, Pottery, Creative writing, and English)
Keeping up a relationship (Id never forget my Rob!)

People I will write letters when I can PLEASE by patient. I <3 you all very much I just didnt think that many people would be interested.

Good Bye for a week or so! Leave sweet nothings for when I come back.
<3

Sun, 20 Mar 2005 16:39:39 GMT

Ok sarah I hope you see this I dont know how to contact you but it would be cool to see a movie today or something my phone number is 7530502.

I got most of the stuff I wanted to done.

I need to clean my room and type out letters.

Mister says: im awesome

and then there was awesome

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 02:20:05 GMT

Ok I went in order...
Letters were sent out to Courtney, Karen, and Carly. keep a lookout for them, if by some reason you dont get them in a week or so.. tell me! Carrie I wrote yours now I just need to type it out.. Ill probably do that tonight.

I just got back from Rob's house; we watched House of 1000 corpses (wasn't a fan) and a Truckload of Family guy epidodes! I finally can say I have seen the show!

I need to straighten my weekend out...tomorrow and friday is Rob.. Movie day on saturday...Sarah on sunday? Eeek they need to have more work shops!

Ok I will keep up the letter writing and such... I wont leave anyone out.

Senomar

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 22:06:11 GMT

To people who like to recieve/give letters...

I have been writing a lot lately and I though another way to put my writing to a use would be to write letters! If you dont talk to me at least once a week (online does not count) and you would like to be my penpal that would be great! Just comment and we can set this whole deal up!

Other cool things about this:
Spiffy stationary
Pictures
Drawings
and the love of me (Amanda)

<3 <3 <3 <3

I dont care who as long as we dont talk often.. I hope some Lewiston people would be interested *tear* I never see any of you!

p.s. I want a kitten. (not from you but I want my mom to let me have one)

our lady peace- somewhere out there

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 03:28:48 GMT

Bands that I have known for a long time but just started to like:

Our Lady Peace
A perfect Circle
Nine inch nails

Here we go again people! band. Movie. Or magazine/nonfiction book (I dont read novels all that much) tell me all you know FOOLS

I love you guys *squeek*

Cream cheese misses you!

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 05:43:16 GMT

Yall know you want to hit that shit. This enty is dedicated to Danny, because I couldnt make it to the show. *tear* I mean who else am I spose to make pudding with? And the bagel dance? Pfft! Cant do it without you hun! Much love to ya and I promis once this project is done we will hang out, have a great time, and I still need to make some macaroni and cheese!

<3 comment people just because

Tue, 01 Mar 2005 03:32:27 GMT

I stumbled across my photobucket to find I never put these to a use... so yeah.

Things are great right now, I actually wasn't even all that upset about returning to school. I am very sleepy though! Oh well. I am doing a snowdance so we wont have school tomorrow. I hope it works! You should all do it to.. it is a mix of the macarina and the robot. COME ON KIDS GET THOSE LIMP BODIES GROOVING! Yeah Im being really silly tonight I guess its because today was nice. Everything thing seems to be nice lately. If anyone wants to be involved in my "niceness" (I apologize for the use of ness I just dont know what else to call it) then just ask!

This is one of those Late night i've been thinking a lot entries.

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 05:19:34 GMT

It started at a young age; but the older I get, the louder the voices.
Amazing grace never sounded so beautiful.
Same goes for Tickle's sneezes.
I love Rob and he loves me, for this I am greatful.
I want to prove to myself I can be a friend.
So I will befriend music.
Just for the lack of human beings that I find tolerable.
I told someone what I think they deserve to hear. I hope that wasnt a mistake.
I am listing to the smiths, it makes me want to paint a pretty picture and give someone a hug.
*hug*
Ask me Ask me Ask me
He protects me when I am scared of nothing..
Thank you for being there
I am going to ask my best friend to dance with me....
Will you dance with?
Oh sorry my mistake..
Will you be my best friend? Will you dance with me?
I wonder if I can dance?
or do anything for that matter.
Mr. Mrs. Miss. Ms.
goth punk indie emo prep
lawyer doctor artist hobo
SO MANY FUCKING LABLES
I laugh when people try to hide from them
it's like hiding from air
I am over tired
Tired over
Tierd oevr
Tihs is awlays fun
My Neck Hurts
the end
curtain closes
you applaud
and I cry

Thats the way the story goes

Warning: over tired girl should never be taken seriously

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 02:58:45 GMT

Wow I havn't updated in a while so here we go!

Friday I had to babysit my cousins. Thank good Rob came along to take away the boredom. I guess it went rather smoothly. We got to watch Good Will Hunting after the kids went to bed. I was really sleepy throughout most of it.

Saturday the lovely Danielle came over. We wanted to do something fun but everyone else was busy. So instead we had a classic Danny and Amanda taking pictures and being big geeks day! I mean we had the best pudding action you could ever dream of. Not to mention some bagel dancing. I really miss that girl being around.

Sunday I went to my grandparents for my Aunts birthday. Brought Rob along. Why are family meals so awkward? Oh well once agian Rob made things better.

Monday I spent the day/night with you guessed it....ROB! We laugh a lot.

Tuesday I got to wake up to rob, which was wonderful. He stayed until one and then we met up at the mall at five.

Rob Rob Rob Rob Rob lol gutta love it!

If anyone else wants to hangout let me know.

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 03:06:31 GMT

Update: valentines was dandy!
Thank you! <3
Best I ever had!

Im bored so post your name or something and I will have a surprise for you! I dont know what they are yet but everyone should do it. You know you want to! If you are reading this you WILL post your name. I think all the surprizes will be different though, depends on who you are.

<3once <3twice <3three times a lady!
(tehe I am a strange little girl at times)

Happiness, we're all in it together.

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 17:19:34 GMT

Sleeping in his cold white apartment
Within the cold grey city
under the cold black sky

Who can you trust?

I love you

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 00:20:59 GMT

Wed, 02 Feb 2005 21:51:27 GMT

Did she tell him to tell her to tell you that I told him I love him?

That's all that matters... Im outa here bitches.

...

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 16:54:07 GMT

Pop Art Is Fun

Wed, 19 Jan 2005 21:37:32 GMT

Do these even matter anymore

Thu, 13 Jan 2005 01:11:29 GMT

Sometimes I really need to force myself to SHUT UP.

I just can't stop myself from asking questions , there is still so much I want to know.

So many things out there I haven't yet seen.

I need to stop being a WaLLfLoWer and join the dance.

I need to protect myself at all measures.

I admit, it can really drain the life out of me.

All I need is a little TLC and I will spring back to life.

I'll admit, sometimes it feels good to hide.

Other times it can make one feel all tied up.

If we just put our heads together...

hold on tight....

And keep an eye out

Everything is sure to turn out just fine.

Much Love <3

The amanda has entered the building

Tue, 11 Jan 2005 03:23:16 GMT

This is going to be short and sweet

the person who comments the most withs a sweet trophy

and the person who answers the trivia questions correctly wins a ... punch in the face... Oh how you want the punch in the face!

Freddy mercury is a ___________ <3 <3 <3
Amanda owns about 15 different colored ________ to keep me warm
no matter what amandas hands are freaking _______

Let the commenting begin!

It is one sexy trophy!

I make a sexy Jesus!

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 04:35:58 GMT

This makes me giggle...

My two favorite guys? Just maybe!

Well I had quite an interesting two days. But I will only talk about the important things. I think I finally found someone who I will be able to have a healthy relationship with who ...

A)can make me laugh

B) understands my weirdness

C) still let me be myself and be friends with the people I want to be.

Who is this mystery man???

The red avenger!!!!

<3*coughROBcough* <3

I have a great BF, and the bestest friend in the whole wide world! (And the fact that they look like simon and garfunkel only makes it cooler)

Thu, 06 Jan 2005 23:35:02 GMT

me: I would of stabbed her in the eye with a pencil if she did
him: thats why i like you
me: lol? My violence?
him: your caring lol

Today was a day full of disappointment. The snow storm owes me a snowday for taking him away from me. Nature can get to us, but people can not. It's so strange how some people seem to know exactly what is going on and some people are so clueless. We are trying to make the best of this that we can.

Its ok that not everyone agrees

you all have the right to your own opinion

and we have ours <3

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 01:27:48 GMT

Well this vacation is over, and Im getting the stressed/sad feeling back again. I never realized how much I hate school, and how happier I am without it until this vacation. I really dont know where I am going in life anymore.. all I want is to be happy and I only need friends/art/music to be happy. And well, a small amount of cash. I dont know if I want to go to college anymore. I am capable of A's but I dont care about them and my teachers yell at me for it... I dont want four more EXSPENSIVE years of that. Please dont comment-lecture me on that, its just the way I feel.

The only thing im looking forward to is hanging out with Rob afterschool. We're going to watch Hell Raiser, because I have never seen it. We are also going to eat italians; how cool is that? I like spending time with friends... *hint hint*

ya well I am not much in a lovey dovey mood so peace out!

Fri, 31 Dec 2004 07:26:41 GMT

+ Cats dont seem to do much when you drop pillows on their heads

+ Blair Witch Project should only be done when your with a friend who is willing to put up with you screaming about how scary the music is.

+ Marshmellows dont go in the microwave

+ People pick on Lisa Loeb

+ People are nice, Amanda needs to stop being so paranoid...

+ Mufasa can be very fun to draw

+ always tell your friends you care about them...

I care about YOU!

I have never felt so loved